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There’s a unique type of spiritual fatigue that comes from years of spiritual journeying. The inner work to raise your awareness, become more conscious, compassionate, healed, aligned.

No one warns you that spiritual awakening can feel like this. The fatigue of turning inward again and again, the weariness that comes from being endlessly re-built from the inside out.

We call it inner work, but to the ego-personality, it doesn’t always feel like there is any progress or even evolution, it’s just pure demolition. The relentless deconstruction that occurs when the soul decides it’s time to reclaim its space within you.

It can feel cruel, relentless, unseen, and without a clear endpoint.

Endless inner work

For many of us, this lifetime carries a non-negotiable assignment from our soul: clear the karmic residue, dissolve the conditioning, and wake up to who you truly are.

The soul blueprint – the karmic map we arrived with – is necessary. It was chosen that way. We are here to expand consciousness at a time when the Earth herself is undergoing planetary ascension. The cosmic energies are amplifying everything, forcing growth, pulling each of us along whether we are ready or not.

To the human self, this process can feel brutal. You do the work: meditate, journal, release, forgive. You face the same lessons in new disguises. You hold yourself accountable, then discover yet another layer to heal.

At some point, the ego-personality begins to push back and ask if it will ever end. It’s not wrong to feel that way. It’s simply the fatigue of a self that’s being asked to die again and again, while still living a human life.

Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the facade of pretence. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true. – Adyashanti

The Soul’s Agenda

You were never meant to suffer for suffering’s sake. Your soul brought you here to set you free.

From the higher view, this dismantling isn’t punishment, it’s precision. The soul knows exactly which wounds and illusions must dissolve so that more light can inhabit our sacred form.

To the human self, this often feels cruel, as though life is stripping away everything we thought we needed or wanted. But from the soul’s perspective, those very structures were never meant to last. They were temporary scaffolding, built from conditioning and survival patterns, created to reveal what required healing.

When their purpose is complete, they begin to crumble. These are the Tower moments of awakening. Not punishment, but a perfect act of orchestration: not chaos but choreography. The timing of endings, the people who trigger us, the patterns that resurface again and again, all serve to reveal the energetic architecture of what’s ready to evolve.

This is the perfection of our awakening curriculum: nothing random, nothing wasted. Every loss, frustration, or cycle is the soul’s way of calling us home – to our Self.

But to the ego-self, this process feels like constant loss – and it forms the foundation of ego dissolution itself. That’s the part no one tells you about awakening: it can feel harsh, frightening, and at times profoundly unrewarding, because the aspect of us that longs for results, for reward and recognition, is the very one being dissolved.

Most of what we are told about awakening sounds like a sales pitch for enlightenment. In a sales pitch, we are told only the most positive aspects; we may even be told things that are not actually true.
– Adyashanti, The End of Your World: Uncensored Straight Talk on the Nature of Enlightenment

Surrender: The Gateway to Alchemy

There is one constant lesson our soul is always teaching us, the ultimate practice of spiritual growth and the hardest of all: surrender.

Surrender doesn’t mean giving up, it means stepping back from the ego’s compulsion to fix, analyse and control the process of life. It means recognising that the higher intelligence within you – the Self beyond the 3D storyline of the psychological you – already holds the blueprint for healing.

Surrender allows the alchemical power of our Higher Self, our own light, to come forward and work its magic. When we stop wrestling with our life and soften into trusting the power of our Higher Self, our own light can start to move through us in ways our ego-mind could never engineer.

Awareness Is Alchemical

For a long time, many of us have grown through repetition: a pattern arises, we live through it, it teaches us, we become aware of it, we release it. Learn, grow, move on.

You could say it’s the traditional curriculum of 3D Earth School – and it can be a slow slow burn. For the soul, it may take an entire lifetime, or many lifetimes, to heal and rebalance its imprints and impressions.

Now, as our connection to the Higher Self strengthens, a gentler path is becoming available. Once a pattern becomes conscious, we can ask our Higher Self to clear it directly – to dissolve the imprint across timelines, memories, and energy fields. This isn’t bypassing the inner work, it’s using our innate understanding of our own alchemical light.

Awareness itself is deeply alchemical, because it isn’t just perception – it’s the Higher Self seeing through us.

In the moment of awareness, we’re no longer viewing life through the ego’s lens of defence, projection, or reaction. We’re seeing a pattern from the clarity of consciousness itself. That single shift changes everything.

Awareness is the pause point, the pattern interrupt. The sacred moment where the automatic conditioning stops running and truth comes into focus. It’s the moment we see the blueprint impression, the wound, or the block and by doing so we’re no longer at its mercy.

Awareness doesn’t make us become something new, it dissolves what hides who we’ve always been. The filter lifts, and our true self begins to shine through.

That’s why awareness is alchemical: light, once seen, transforms what it touches. The moment you truly see a pattern, you no longer have to keep replaying it in 3D form.

You can acknowledge it, surrender it to the light of your Higher Self, and invite it to transmute the wound, memory, or block – whether you understand its origins or not – at its source.

The beauty of this approach is that you don’t need to excavate the “why.” The story in your life was only ever a Soul-devised script to make the energy visible so it can be healed.

Rather than attaching to the narrative, you can simply recognise: it is what it is, it served a sacred purpose, and now I ask my Higher Self to dissolve it across all lifetimes and throughout my mind, body and spirit, so I may experience life without this filter.

In this way, the inner work becomes lighter, subtler, guided by the innate intelligence of your own light rather than by ego-efforting.

Living With the Weariness

Our mind, body spirit complex is trying to keep pace with the soul’s momentum.

The struggle is real. The exhaustion many of us feel now, from the relentless drive of our inner light to shine through, is not a sign of regression. It’s the mind and body adjusting to an acceleration in spiritual light frequency.

That’s why gentleness, self love and compassion towards ourselves matters. Rest is sacred assimilation. Every pause gives the Higher Self space to weave new coherence through the layers that once fought for survival.

If you feel weary, you’re in the middle of the most honest work a human can do – looking within to know thyself. The ego finds it thankless because it cannot comprehend what it’s becoming. But one day, you’ll look back and realise that even in your hardest moments, something within you was always loving you into wholeness.